building building

I hate to argue. (I'm sure that comes as a surprise to some of you as I seem to do it a lot.) I'm trying reeeeeeeally hard to relax through this pregnancy and let go of my worries. So far, we're doing pretty well. I've felt great, which has been nice, and Logan continues to do so well. He's so much fun. Work is picking up, which is nice. It's so fun to be busy. Unfortunately, our insurance company has let us down in a (few) major way(s) and I'm having such a hard time moving past it. I feel like I argue with some random stranger (regarding insurance) on the phone daily, and of course I never get anywhere. My overall outlook on things is pretty good, I'd say, but it seems like we've had one minor (or major) hitch nearly daily. I really wish I could turn over all of my worries, but they seem to come right back. I don't even know how to pray or what to ask for. Its especially frustrating that I am a healthcare provider, and some stranger on the phone tells me what I can and can't have. I'm not outlandish in my requests. There's just a seed of sadness/frustration that seems to be building, and I want it to go away 0r at least feel like there's a management plan in place.

On a better note, we're grateful for the sunshine and warmer temperatures. We've gotten to be outside a bit (the boys more often than me because they play while I'm at work). We snuck back to Omaha last week and got in a few good visits with friends (and an awesome trip to Target). We had a quick trip to Arcadia recently and will spend Easter with my family. Dale's so anxious to get outside and work in the yard; I love it!

Thumbs up all around

We got good reports all around today. Logan's eyes are right where they need to be for an eight-month old. I shed a few unnecessary tears because I underestimated his charm. The doc was able to distract him enough to see what she needed. . . no swaddling or prying eyes open! He was gone for about 3 1/2 minutes before they returned him to (sobbing) me to say things were great. I blame hormones. In true Logan fashion, he spit up on the carpet on our way out. Atta boy!
I had a great visit with my new doc, too. We have a reasonable outline of what the rest of this *full term!* pregnancy may look like. She's completely down to earth which I appreciate so much. We celebrated with a trip to Valentino's (guess who voted for that) and Wal-Mart (man I wish we had a Target) before driving back home in the drizzle.
Tomorrow its back to work; I'm hoping I can ford the river to get to Genoa in the morning. I'll throw in my oars just in case. For now I'm going to take Dale up on movie night, which we postponed last night (just couldn't tear ourselves away from the Bachelor wedding. . . even though we have no idea who they are or what their story was. No worries, I googled them this morning to get the scoop). Take care, stay dry. Lots of love from all of us!

big day tomorrow

It was a damp, drizzly day here today. Dale and Logan were a bit under the weather, so they had "man time" and laid low at home. Logan was in a great mood when I got home, talking up a storm. I love going to work, and I love coming home. This feels like such a good fit for us.

Tomorrow's a big day for all of us. Logan has his followup appointment with the ophthalmologist (no concerns, just a routine followup from the NICU). Its rather monumental for me, because its the last thing for us to check off before he returns completely to "routine" well child checks. One more month of preemie formula, and I think we'll have a "normal" : ) kid after that. He's getting to be such a big boy and so much fun.

I have my first appointment with my new obstetrician tomorrow. I've not met her, but my partners have great things to say about her. The nice thing is that we can see her in Grand Island, which is just a quick 20 minute drive for routine appointments. Plus, she sees patients there on Tuesdays--my day off. I'm feeling well, aside from a little bit of a sleep disturbance. I can't complain though. We made it through our first trimester with flying colors. . . now let's just press on through two more!

Its high times for us tonight; I think we're going to splurge on a pay-per-view movie (and maybe stay up until 9!) Hope you're well.

Today

is a great day. Truly, I feel at peace today, so I wanted to sit and blog a bit. I have the day off today, so I got to start it off with my boys, a visit from a friend (and two of her kiddos), and now I'm enjoying a delightful muffin and a cup of coffee. I honestly haven't felt this content for a long time. I love how God showers us with grace when we least expect it (or perhaps he does it frequently and I'm not quiet enough to receive it).

I haven't been on here in a while because things have been a bit scattered and I didn't think I could organize my thoughts enough to post. We're settling into a routine and doing well. Work has started off wonderfully. I'm trying to be patient as I build my practice, but I'm grateful to have good, fun people to work alongside daily. Its a bit intimidating, as you can imagine, but I pray that my decisions and actions are guided by the holy spirit. Dale is an AWESOME stay at home dad. We have a great set-up here, and we have hired a nanny to come for a few hours in the afternoon to give him a break. Logan absolutely loves her and she helps me out a ton so that I'm not bombarded with household chores when I get home. I don't feel guilty when I sit down to read for pleasure in the evenings. We still have the radar on for a job for Dale, but we're not anxious because things are working wonderfully for now. Occasionally I have time to run home for lunch which is a huge perk as well.

We've been showered with blessings as we work to become part of this community. Smack dab in the middle of our chaos with all of the transition, we learned some big news as well--We are expecting another baby in August! At first we were certainly overwhelmed and nervous, as you can imagine. I can't lie; I feel plenty of anxiousness and occasionally guilt for some reason, but we have been so blessed thus far. We ask for your prayers as we venture through another pregnancy. I've felt so good, and made it through my first hormonal day yesterday. I suppose this is an answer to prayers for patience as well as the desire to surrender control. Slowly, I'm losing control, thank God!

I pray you have a great day. I'll try to keep you posted here as we journey along. I'll leave you with a photo of our little scholar (who may have been set up by his uncle).